Engaging in Life

Have you ever been criticized for being an observer of life more so than a participant? That could be someone’s perception, someone who isn’t in your shoes and doesn’t understand how you got where you are and what’s going on behind the scenes.

Aren’t results better when we stop comparing where we are with where someone else is? When we look at what’s on our plate instead of taking envious glances at what’s on the plate of another? 

Today I was able to go out into the sunshine and walk to get groceries. I stopped to give my opinion at an open house for a city project. It’s easier for me to write than to speak and I stumbled over words and rambled a little in getting to my point. But I showed up, shook someone’s hand, introduced myself and gave my opinion and suggestions. When the project is completed, I’ll have given my input as best I could and if the results cause me to roll my eyes or shake my head, at least I’ll know I participated. 

When I got to the remodeled and reorganized food co-op, I was pleased to see they carry bakers ammonia. I’ve been looking for it at two of the local stores and didn’t want to order such a small item online. It doesn’t have a long shelf life but cookie season is approaching.

I need to eat gluten-free foods. The bakers ammonia gives old-fashioned cookies the crunch on the outside and I want to make springerlies. My life is complex now and there isn’t much attention for my ancestral heritage but the anise-flavored springerlie cookies are something I feel I can reach for. I have one of the rolling pins used to press the design into cookie dough. I have several recipes and the most simple one will be the one I try first. 

I’ve used gluten-free cookie mixes but not made cookies from scratch with gluten-free flour yet so it will be an experiment and takes enough planning that it will be a somewhat significant project for me to include in my life. It will also be one of just a few things I’ll do for the holidays.

I intend to be successful at it and won’t be comparing myself to what others with more do and have or with what others with less do and have.

I’m participating in life whatever someone else’s perception is.     

State of the Blog

This blog got a comment I needed to approve or not so I was reminded of its existence. After tracking down my password I logged in and saw that it still gets views. That surprised me. It was never a well-read blog; I wrote for enjoyment and for something positive to do while I was continuing to go through some great challenges.

While I was posting I never thought beyond the possibility of someone reading within a day or two. It’s been almost a year since I’ve even logged in and now I see that every month someone reads something. I’m not ashamed of anything I’ve written but it’s given me pause to think how long some of this content sticks around.

Towards the end of my engagement here I was reading so much of what other people were doing that I didn’t really have time to attend to my own blog. It was a learning experience and I enjoyed it but in the end it just seemed that everyone was wanting attention and not really giving it to others. Maybe my perception is wrong but I just didn’t understand the game here.

Now that I’ve got my password info and this is on my radar again perhaps I’ll write from time to time.